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New Zealand Fetish Ball

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 08:43:44 GMT

Oh the joys and hopes!

New Zealand has a Fetish Ball coming up! Link HERE

ANTICI........ PATION

;) Speaking of..... segue lines of Rocky Horror Picture Show played here last week. Oh, achem, two weeks now... oh dear. That's right> LAST week I was gallavanting off on a ski bum holiday. right.

The week before saw me dressing at work- borrowing everything but my underclothes in a mutually great arrangement: I get to dress up, and promote the company out at an event that saw lots of attendees that would love this shop. (oh how can i count the ways that I love this job)

I wore a super cute blue corset, tiny little skirt and thigh high fishnets (one side all holed up), ankle boots with a serious heel and pinstriping. I made my hair BIG. Not just big, nor Big, but BIG. Magenta like.

:) A lovely Kiwi-Canukian sat front row in her real made-for-her corset and we read from the script I printed, and yelled, laughed, threw rice and had a gay ol time for Gay Ski Week.

oh... hehehe. not like THAT. ;P

News. New Roads. Not so much changes, as I kinda had it planned this way before this thing that changed it got changed back. Guess it's time to go live another kiwi dream. Anyways, I'm starting to have visions of oceans and ....

Burlesque Competition Video

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 01:08:57 GMT

YAY!!! Thanks to a pal for taking this video, and recently uploading at my request... I need it to share with someone here in Kiwi lands as I'm interested in helping out with the Fetish Ball coming up. So I thought I'd share it with you all, as is, no editing- it's fine enough.... oh sure, I'm critiquing the hell outta it, but it's not really a promo vid....

would LOVE to gather vids and pics and make a real promo vid, but i've also lost all the old pics and vids I had saved "Somewhere" ??!! ?!!?!?!!?!

So , btw, if any of you out there have any of any of my performances, pls msg me so I can get them! (especially the play peircing set, at The Rhino)

So, without further adeu... Teh Persephone the Pirate Princess performing in the Kabuki Guns Burlesque Competition, at Broken City, Spring 2009...

Midori is a great kisser....

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 05:44:48 GMT

I dream vivid dreams, and strange yet telling, dreams. Apparently my inner self also craves burlesque and fun, so that I dream of upcoming shows that I am pulled from, not allowed to attend... but get private lovely evenings of anticapatory watchful joys. There is a workshop by Midori the next day, but there is something barring me - some training that I must attend. Is this the translation of her upcoming Edmonton workshop, and my being here?

I somehow end up, night before, in her rooms. There are slave boys, sexy. We are dozing and I am looking at them, at her. She is so sexy and in my dream I have a bit of that attention, nervousness, excitement - of being there.....

Midori is a fabulous kisser.

I have fabulous dreams!

DOKKKTOOOOR ALISON, In the HOUSE

Sat, 15 Aug 2009 14:38:46 GMT

HOT DAMN.... I'm going to do it... post the strange one on the 'family travel blog'...

Here's what you all are getting.

A lump.

Yup, a lump.

For a few days I've had a lump.... think on your left leg. Inside the left ankle. oh fuck, for heaven's sake, this is NOT my family blog! where the leg meets body, the crevasse of the inner leg. Directly outside the labia, between clit and entryway, but outside the labia- though moving inwards like a hard little alien egg expanding.... a lump.

A lump that grew quick tells me this miraculously nasty thing is an ingrown hair gone 'hairy'... sorry. couldn't resist. Go ahead and groan. Slap your knee if you have to... I'm shaking my head and 'oh dear'ing myself....

OR an alien spawn.

Thank all the powers that be that I went just when I did, to the doctor's... I was very seriously thinking of using my skills and practice and doing it myself. Get a scalpel ie torn apart razer in a pinch, a hollow needle to drain, from the pharmacist ( I know you can do this as I got 20 once for a little do-it-yourself playpeircing fun...though not here, in NZ.) and off we go with the DOKKTOOR PLayYY

Due to my lack of wanting to acrobatic clean ups - it IS right between my legs in a bit of a tough place to see... and due to my hoping for some painkillers for it (thank freakin fuck they gave me some shots to numb it. As usual it took a few, and even THEN I felt the scalpel) I went to the clinic.

My doctor's name is Alison. With shoulder length waves of red and smooth moon skin. She had a chaperone come in, a gorgeous brunette nurse with just the slender curves I so love in a woman.

I cried.

Now i understand the torment.... there it is, one dream come true, and there is so little I can do about it.....

Isn't it ironic, don't ya think, it's like red headed doctors, with voyuer nurses, and not enough wit to show them you could make THEIR dreams come true. OoH!.... I'm taped up and supposed to keep it dry. How am I supposed to do THAT!??!!?!? Ahhhhh.... the joy of real-life teasers. I think I'm going to cry again.

good night, good night, a thousand sweet luscious good nights....

OH YESSS, PS

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 08:36:41 GMT

Think HOOTERS is something??

There's an energy drink here with a rooster called BIG COCK

It's by line is "Hits the Spot"

I shit you not.

I could write a Dr Suessian type poem.... I'll try to grab a photo.

Magical Workings!

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 06:09:00 GMT

Wow, did that FUCK YOU ever work!

Not that I said "fuck you" to a person... more to the voice that says I can't have what I need / want, to the voice of insecurity, of disabling power. I yelled it, i whispered it when I nearly gave in. In the end, oh so nearly did I stray, I followed through and accepted lonliness over someone that just isn't what I want. I accepted boredom over 'putting up with" to get what I need. Guess I don't "NEED" , but long for. It's a sexy feeling to 'long for', to accept and enjoy 'yearnings', to ride the waves of them, and smile to myself in the fun, self-pleasured sort of torture.

It's really freakin hard to tell insecurity to screw off, though.

It's really hard to go even further and keep giving chances, when repetition trys to teach us that trying is just insanity... Sometimes we need to hold faith that it's not insanity to expect different reactions to the same action, when it's with DIFFERENT PEOPLE- bounce the hope off different agents. Even when so many bounce back, it's not actually insanity to do the same thing time and again, if you change the one BIG variable, and keep on acting with love, rather than fear. Sometimes it's about prep work too....

In this case, all through texts on a broken phone that covers part of the screen in inky blackness, I let someone know that while I like visiting, I'm looking for something more romantic, slower, and less ... rough. Well, immediately rough...

Let him go, rather than deal with pushy groping leg humping to have a very boring but at least SOMETHING cuddle.
;)

Doesn't matter what happens with this particular person, I bounced the ball. He DID take it up, showing me it's possible. He asked what I AM looking for in someone, and we're meeting up to chat about it. HUH..Well then... ..That's great stuff.... Thanks Ms. Inspiration! I hope your journey into acceptance is going beautifully, too. Oh, I think you may like this book : " Dance of the Dissident Daughter", which is proving to be a fabulous inspiration and guide along these lines of takeing further steps in my empowering. By Sue Monk Kidd.

PS BLOGGITY WORLD.... My 19 yr old manager is GORGEOUS, super cute excited to be a model for my photography practicings, loves to drink red wine, too, and said it's ok that I post about her being sexy... what else was it I was going totell you... something delicious... I am forgetting, maybe she'll comment and remind us.

Have I told you how much I love this job? RIGHT, I can SO keep a job! Just have to have one I *like*, rather than one I do to try to make more money... grin. It's wonderful sharing that little smile with a person or a couple in knowing I've just sold them something wonderfully pleasurable! Somehow the money is falling into place too...

My brain is too forgetful for blogging. I was going to say something, but trainwrecked.... COOOOL.. Im not even fried. Speaking of, Shambhala, I felt you singing my name! I danced to your call and rythem in the moon wind!

xoxo

one of these days I'm bringing in my camera and playing dress up!

Our own lyrics

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 09:15:21 GMT

Reading a really powerful, deeply honest post has made me think about permission.... about giving ourselves permission to feel what we feel, to do what we need to do.

If you're reading this: so you can't be somewhere ELSE, but you do get to be where you ARE, maybe something good in that if you can give yourself permission.... so go do what you need to. Get high, drink, dance, play, fuck, or don't.

And to feel what you do. It's ok for relationships to ebb and flow, as well as permissions to others. Sometimes relationships need to be closed for awhile. Sometimes more open.

Inspiring, lady... Making me feel about permission... to feel fed up with the shit of guys lieing and lieing to find ways to entice you, only trying to jam their cocks into you. Boring, childish, mindlessly unsatisfying - and certainly having more to do with this obvious undercurrent of thinking of women as meat to be bought with lies.

So I'm giving myself permission to say FUCK YOU. To smile sideways and get what ** I ** want.

I'm giving myself permission to be really freakin angry at my roommates, while also being grateful for the place, for the wonderfulness of the space, for the last few days before I now have to move again.

For being a butt and not getting off mine to go get the commercial, but now I'll get off my arse to go get some other things I want. Like inclusion in the fetish show, at least i can try. Or love, or play time, or photography....I'm frustrated but otherthings are coming together. I'm allowing myself to be really hurt at parents who can't be bothered to call for birthdays, and happy for the acceptance and permission to now go on without worrying about trying to find internet, phones, overseas connections.... To just go out in the world and to change directions.

Going now to try yet again to win this sky dive tonight singing my own lyrics to Janis Joplin's " Mercedez Benz" going something like,

"Oh Lord, won't you win me a Kiwi Sky Dive
My friends all do bungi, and I feel so deprived
Travel hard all my lifetime, and here I arrive
So Lord, wont you win me a Queenstown Sky Dive"

grin

Impromptu Flogging Workshop

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 13:37:52 GMT

Young nightclub attached to a party-bus type backpackers. Lots of very inebriated young adults on holiday, night after night. They do things like free sky dive give away on karaokee night, or coming to my shop where I work and happening to be working to arrange to promote during the 'vibrator races'. Yup, an inclined table and they race vibrators for prizes like food, drink, gift voucher for our store... ;)

Last night I ended up giving a flogging and spanking demo/workshop, on stage.

Ah...

Did you know that the reason I went so insanely INTO the scene, after Africa, was because I am usually in complete 'hiding' while traveling. Not easy to find the 'scenes', most places are 'regular folk'. I can't hide it anymore.... I am seeking it out here, and already it finds me.

YAY UNIVERSE!!!

Man, something has to keep me entertained. It's not boredom...no... but... kinda. I love the reading, but would really like someone to hang out with, cuddle with- talk with. Quick meetings in passing, a hello and how's it ok bye, just isnt doin it for me.... the regular life of travelin. Which is making me ansy to be out wandering and at least exploring.... but there is some GREAT things afoot here.... we shall see..... At least I got some Birthday debaucheries.... which makes me lovingly think back of a tree, some great old friends and some new ones, sunrise and another birthday morning of delightful debaucheries..... Ahhh, I bet that tree's limbs still quiver with the memory......

Across some seas

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 03:10:06 GMT

Ah, it's been too long... and short this shall be as I have some skis to attend to. That's right. Skiis. I've jumped a pond and am a touch bit southerly into the depth of winter in July.

New Zealand has a seriously serious scene. Arials and shows, burlesque...oh my oh my i'm going to have to do some serious study and practice! ;) Take a reeeeaaaal close look. Closer.... CLOSER.

grin

I'm going to go have a chat with a guy at the newly opened gay club regarding throwing an event.

So sorry to leave you all, my loves, but this tourist town on the lake surrounded by mountains is just screaming for some debaucherous fun. What could I do but help out.... laugh. Here's hoping.
\
In all seriousness, it's a very tough market. A tiny city with a million tourists a year. Try to find some people for it... i feel like the universe is not just nudgeing me to go ahead tho. It feels like a full on enslaught kick in the back, side, legs, knees to GO DO IT. laugh

whoot.

Wish me debauchery galore! OOOOhhhh, maybe THAT will be my stage name! Debauchery Galore. hahaha... I've yet to come up with a good stage name. Persephone is the playhouse, not really ,,,, right. Any other ideas??

Oh lookie, She knows how to read!

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:46:30 GMT

Ok, so here's this BBC thing that's been going around.... (has anyone found the source or is this some big made up thing?)... anways, zastrazzi is incredible. His blog is always fun to read, bits n peices, information, great links for geeks that I usually don't quite understand, recipes and... well.. this. He linked to the books for each and every one. wow. zers. (where DOES he get the time?!)

Instructions:
1) Look at the list and put an 'X' for those you have read.
2) Add a '+' to the ones you LOVE.
3) Star (*) those you plan on reading.
4) Tally your total at the bottom.

[* ] 1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
[X+] 2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
[X ] 3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
[X+ ] 4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
[X+ ] 5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee 
[ ] 6 The Bible
[ ] 7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
[X+ ] 8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
[ ] 9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
[X ] 10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
[X+ ] 11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
[ ] 12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
[* ] 13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller 
[ ] 14 Complete Works of Shakespeare 
[ ] 15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
[X+ ] 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien 
[ ] 17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
[X ] 18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
[* ] 19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
[ ] 20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
[ ] 21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
[* ] 22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
[ ] 23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
[ ] 24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
[X+] 25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
[ ] 26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
[ ] 27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
[X+] 28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck 
[* ] 29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll 
[ ] 30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame 
[X ] 31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
[X ] 32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
[ ] 33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
[ ] 34 Emma - Jane Austen
[ ] 35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
[X ] 36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
[X ] 37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hossein
[* ] 38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
[X ] 39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden 
[* ] 40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne 
[X ] 41 Animal Farm - George Orwell 
[X ] 42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown 
[ ] 43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
[ ] 44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving 
[ ] 45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins 
[X ] 46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
[ ] 47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
[X+ ] 48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
[X ] 49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding 
[ ] 50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
[* ] 51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel 
[ ] 52 Dune - Frank Herbert 
[ ] 53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
[ ] 54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
[ ] 55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
[ ] 56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
[ ] 57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
[ ] 58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley 
[X ] 59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
[* ] 60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
[ ] 61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck 
[* ] 62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
[ ] 63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
[ ] 64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
[ ] 65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
[X ] 66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac 
[ ] 67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
[? ] 68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
[ ] 69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
[X ] 70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
[X ] 71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
[X ] 72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
[X+ ] 73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
[ ] 74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson  (No, but I read his Dark Star Safari)
[* ] 75 Ulysses - James Joyce
[ ] 76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
[ ] 77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
[ ] 78 Germinal - Emile Zola
[ ] 79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
[ ] 80 Possession - AS Byatt
[ ] 81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
[ ] 82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
[ ] 83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
[ ] 84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
[ ] 85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
[ ] 86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
[X ] 87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White 
[* ] 88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
[ ] 89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle 
[ ] 90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
[ ] 91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
[ ] 92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery 
[ ] 93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
[ ] 94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
[ ] 95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
[ ] 96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
[* ] 97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas 
[ ] 98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare 
[ ] 99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
[* ] 100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

28 read, 10 that I love, 14 I want to read,
( is this list different than some on FB?)...

Could someone please turn off this sniffling machine called my nose? Sneezing is like orgasms? I DONT THINK SO! grrrrrr.

Luscious Luper

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 06:15:30 GMT

I hadn't really thought I'd go this year.... Afterwards it was a greater blessing than I'd ever have imagined...

Imagine - if you've been there - the big room, dungeon, people milling about, a social area on the other side of the room...I have completely forgotten about it all. There's this lean red head on her knees in front of me. That straight red hair is flowing out on the carpet in front of her, partly on the toy bag which is filled with crops and floggers, rope and ... oh what's this? Nipple clamps. I am having her boyfriend / dom, who is very new to this whole 'kinky' world, make a "zipper" (clothes pins strung out on a thin rope/cord so that they can all go on, and then all be pulled off together, a whole row of clothes pins tearing away).

She's demure, big kitten eyes right out of my fantasies, looking to me for kindness, and for pain.

She has an absolutely incredible body, face, attitude. She also turned me on, quite incredibly, that she is gut wrenchingly *hot*, and has a business sense, is getting an applicable degree, and, as I found out, is AWARE.

She also quite liked me, and then what we did....

Ahhh, it's a good life!

A lovely servant brought me up there and took fabulous care of me all weekend. We learned, together, how to deal with losses of concentration, and how to bring ourselves into a deeper clarity and understanding. I learned a lot about longer term play - as we were 'in role' for nearly the whole of the 3 days. For the first time I had my legs shaved. Not that others haven't wanted to, but I'm a particular gal with VERY particular needs in shaving (thicker hair requires totally different technique). At shaving he seems to be a pro, and in all things listened well, followed directions, and was caring, generous, and giving. What I mean by this isn't that he bought me things, but that he waited for me, was patient, had the car ready for me, was quick to do what was needed to rejoin me, and was ... involved with his heart. He didn't just give me a massage when I needed one, he did it with love and the extra attention that brings.

This brought me my first assisted stretching Thai massage!

It also brought me the full awareness that I * REALLY * like this life and the lifestyle... SO. For the very very lucky few, I am now accepting servants, for non sexual play - that is, obviously, both sexes. For trying something new, training singles or couples (or more), or for harder 'edge' play.

On another note: At long last, I also got some other sides of myself taken care of. The greatest drawback was that it was over so quickly, as I would have loved to play that way all night, if not for a week or a few months.... oh, come on, let's be real. That's what I want FULL TIME. Oh, the hair pulling! perfect. Just absolutely perfect. Quick pulls, long drawn out ones, stretching me back and holding me there. Never did any stray hairs catch with that sharpness, always supported yet firm. Ahhhhh there are such contented sighs....
The direction, the incredible pain through simple pressure point technique, and let off before it pulled me away from the joy and into that state of 'dealing for his pleasure', rather than just pleasure. (a big difference! ). Ahh, happy weekend. Bite mark bruises gave me serene reminders for a week.

Ok blog land... naughty nights!

Lupercalia 2009

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:29:28 GMT

Oh so excited by the prospects of this weekend! Edmonton's Lupercalia comes again, and this is the tenth year anniversary.

Presenters like Elwood, always one of my favorites, and Fifth Angel, Peggy O, and Sir Scott as well as so many more. It's always been some of the greatest days of my year, so I'm quite excited!

In other news... well, I've been travelling and far too little naughtiness has been afoot. Humbug.

I AM working on venues. There's little whisperings of hope and ideas of some momentum... But then, this is what happens when a home free galavanting princess pirate creates a nest.

I'm doing the happy winter nesting.

Though I feel the spring winds starting to sparkle some change through my hair. Those sweet softer winds that crave for sensuality to awaken again, along with the breath of the world.

So all of a sudden I seem to be intrigued by the idea of dating and...

...and, well... there's always the desires to really give this place a proper christening, so to speak. ha!

(Oh, and in Vanilla news: I made, from scratch, a fabulous red thai rice and mixed bean soup with lemon chicken and sauteed veg. It is GOOD. )

Distracted lately??

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 09:14:37 GMT

Hmmmm. Oh yah! Lookie that blog thing.

I feel like blogging this late eve when I am tired and my bed calls but am fighting it... Kind of like being a petulant child screaming NOT to go to bed yet, at.... my self.... uhhh huh.... BUT COME ON ...it's so much FUN!!!! I don't WANNA go to bed... oh wait.. yes I * DO * .... oh that nice bed. At last. A bed. MY Bed. With a feather duvet- so long dreamed of and yearned for... and that sexy frame..

laugh

I get like this sometimes. I'm tired, but am up. doing nothing. doing lots. Puttering.

Tonight I roasted pecans in hopes of pecan crusted halibut. I did some research ala asking friends, then online research, and am ready... ish. The roasted pecans are a tad too brownish and are now further impetus to my wanting to make cookies. (I think maybe Pecan cranberry chocolate chunk oat cookies).

I will roast some NEW pecans tomorrow, then use the herbed bread crumbs from home-made breads to crust the Halibut with. Well traveled Halibut. It was brought from Alaska (where I met B), to Colorado (where B flew me for a fabulous week of skiing and some music fest to sideline some fabulous pre and post skiing muscle relaxants), to here. HERE (where the Halibut now resides in wait for the journey to my belly).

Here in my brand spankin fabulous Home, with a capital H because it's really my Home. MY very FIRST apartment of my own.

The pecan crusted halibut will go with the corn bread I made tonight. As well as the black beans I soaked and cooked today, maybe with basmati. Spicy black bean basmati.... hmmmm....

Cooking in My Home.... My own home.... with My kitchen in my pretty lil apartment....

I come in, I know it's in the state I left it in, that there will be no one up, sleeping, coming or going, no one I did not invite - and if any of this is not true I can just go ahead and kick their ass out (even if that means some police help.... I sure wouldn't mind SOME kind of sexy guns n handcuff action going on in here!)

That about sums up the update.... I guess. I was in Alaska, following Dawson City where I hitch hiked from Shambhala in Southern BC, all the way to Inuvik, hopped a plane and went to Tuktoyaktuk, and put my bare feet in the Arctic Ocean. I was determined to strip right there on the beach in front of everyone and hop on in, but the 2 degree weather out-determined me. Also went in a traditional icehouse, 25 feet down in the permafrost. Waves of ice and mud walls, crystal coated sparkling ceiling....

There are many adventures, but alas, sadly little of the really important (for this journal) sexy stuff.... Well... besides I found one of the best post-skiing muscle relaxants on the 'market'..... Multiple Brand Orgasms.... Sure does the trick.

Also helpful to follow that dose with hot tub and sauna.....

Chicken, Alaska has a gift shop with all this kitchy touristy stuff that says, with a chicken and an egg, "I got Laid in Chicken, Alaska". I was staying One night to check out the bar I'd heard so very much about. Thought to myself "Wouldn't that be cool to earn that t-shirt!??! ...but no.. silly, i'm only passing through and I don't just meet people and.....

..... stay on for months.....

Earned that t-shirt till it was well worn out, I guess. SO many fabulous, astounding view-point places I didn't get to have sex though.... vanilla. Very vanilla. But vanilla is good too. I like mine with hot chocolate chip cookies and occassional floggings, but hey, can't always get it all at once! ;P

Well, in more news... I *AM * considering another Garden, and certain sexy classes, and more tequila....

Ahh, I am now WITH HOME, rather than home free..... for a few months anyways..... The goodness is exponential. From the deep bath to the duvet to the lamps to the island in the kitchen, and more more more... now to go get the bbq. and try to get my car fixed a bit. Accepting gifts of car repairs, ski holidays and massages, besides the usual sapphires, fine wines and good coffees. ;P

The only thing really terribly missing -oh, well, yes, the liquor cabinet is frightfully bare, but that's not it.... it's a good christening.

This place needs some working in!

Debonaire Debaucheries, the Garden Returns

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:53:34 GMT

The third installation of The Garden ....(insert drum roll here).....

Sunday, August 3rd, 2008.
Monday is the holiday.

CHANGE: Tickets will be available at the door ONLY. For the ever low price, including prizes, shows, dancing, dj's, the fabulous Shae MCing, a licenced venue, AND lots and lots of private play space, all for only $15.

Doors at 8pm,

The princess pirate is returning, and we're having a rummin good ol time, beach party- pirates and ninjas and general other fiends style, pan-sexual, pan-fetish play party....

Pirate and Ninja and the like Costumes welcome, or of course, Fetish or Formal wear- ONLY.

The Big Easy
3064 - 32 St NE

Remember: No cameras, but hopefully our professional photographer will be onsite should you wish a photo of your beautiful selves, free of charge.

In other news, I have advice for all my adoring fans of ?? 2??.... IF you are going to have sex in a public place, make it a good place. ooohhhh, just for an off the wall idea.... say an elevator... don't make it just any ol one, but make it, say, the elevator at our very own Art Museum of Canada....call it ' installation art' or, if in water...not just some back country unheard of pond that no one ever goes to, but one of the wonders of the world, Victoria Falls.... just sayin. Better points, more pronounced points, really. ;)

I'm in Antigonish. Cool. And the Cabot Trail really is THAT beautiful.

So..... since i came on out here to open my heart and find direction..... I got my heart opening up, feel really centered on at least a lot more of my wants and needs emotionally, but not on the questions of life that I meant to get centered on.... reminds me that often what we are focusing on is the wrong thing.... but hey...still... finding my way somehow regardless, isnt' that interesting... somehow, on the side, it's working its own self out. Just like it does.... I'm not talking trivial things here, but really emotionally impacting, mentally, and spiritually challenging questions of what to do about my physical body- ie: where in the world to place it over the next few years.... and why.....

I've found that I REALLY like travelling with someone that is fun to be with in emotionally connected, intimate ways, but learning that was tough because what made me learn this was being emotionally involved with a person whose actions spoke of a type of disregard that has been very painful...wrong person, right lesson?? Or another reminder of me? What is the lesson?
Partially I think it is that one day I will very much enjoy travelling with that person that's always been in my shadow world, another part tells me that the lesson is that I have to let go of 'relationships', in a very surreal idea that has started coming to me....
And of course part of me is just hurt, and feeling very .... used, while still very much caring about this person and missing the very rare presence of that type of comfort in my life... a rarity that lent me again to accepting things that would be better unaccepted for an idea fuelled by hope, by yearning, and, well, by so many moments that can only be described as magical, glorious, soul filling... you know, those hugely pretty words, for experiences that kept me...wanting.

I've also found that renegade camping gives me a gift that I very much appreciate, and am glad to have gotten- but that I also need some availability of comfort, occassionally- of a bathroom, of a bed even, maybe. Really, of staying STILL for a few days- which i have not done enough of... not just still, no...but in one place that also has solace. (One place, in Africa was simply a hostel that I was camping in, that had nice grass, some shade, and wow- a tv.... oh, and a pool. ;) Just a nice clean place to hang out. with a kitchen. Oh to spend a week with a kitchen.... Yes. I have been washed by the lovely warm Atlantic Ocean that fills this side of Nova Scotia, have spent so many lovely days mostly on my own, exploring, camping, hiking, experiencing a great deal of the joy of the road and absolutely LOVING driving my own car. I love that car! And now I also am moving towards a readiness for PEI, for family, for being at my parents place a few weeks.....

good thing, cause when I get home it's going to be HECTIC.

PS: SInce I am deciding to share with you all this very intimate look at deeper me, please remember that I am STILL a hooligan debaucherous fiend and now I'm an especially horny one. GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrooooowwwwwwwlllll.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh, and I need a way to get to, and in, Shambhala. (in sooo many ways).....

Debauching Canada

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 16:50:47 GMT

Sorry to leave you all folks! I've been away and away, updating the nice clean travel blog and wondering how on earth to pop on over to say what I wanted to say here....

What on earth could I say!??!

It's SO wonderfully debaucherous, so titilatingly sexy, that I really don't know how I could let you all, who know very well who I am, in on all of it. I really should set up a private journal and find a way to get millions of readers by telling all the fabulous stories of the behind the scenes, early morning parks, rehearsals, after parties, play parties, manyway relationships in polyamory to nice pretty little orgies and ...oh, well.... you get the idea.

Oh, yes, well, I set out jokingly (ahem cough cough) saying that I am a Princess Pirate in my prairie pirate vessel, out to debauch our fair nation. I've actually mostly just been having a fabulous, but very decidedly not debaucherous, journey. Lots of renegade camping, a fair amount of drinking, visiting some wonderful friends and then even travelling for a few weeks with J....but fear not, my lovelies! It hasn't all been boring ol princess cheers-ing with sipping tequila, and long long drives without any side road pleasure breaks. There's even been some down home good ol debauchery in there. A wee bit. And my first ever car, that pirate vessel of hooliganery, well, it's been well christened...though I am quite disappointed that as of yet I haven't been queen of the castle up on the roof.... hmmmm.... how to change that..... hmmmm, details that I seem to have trouble sharing here... oh... the many uses of doors! ahhhhh....

But that brings me back to you all knowing me. ;) hehehe.... Which means you know it's been goooood times. I will tell you this.... I JUST missed a fetish party in Toronto, found NOTHING in Ottawa, and AT LAST AT LAST was there *just* on time for the monthly fetish party in one of my love of loves, and once-home of Montreal.....

I had a gas mask put on me and was completely covered, totally and fully wrapped up in latex. (for those that don't know, think latex in a roll like a larger roll of saran wrap, being tightly bound around...or go see that inconspicuous photo on FB) ...so I'm all wrapped up. Then carried around the bar, sat outside, flipped upside down, made to feel like I could fall off the stage, teased and generally well fucked with. Then I was told I could get myself out. Stick a thumb through and rip and pull myself out. Well holy geez! It's not that easy! Got a hole going, but to rip that stuff while you're still stuck is QUITE the mission!!!... EGADS! ;P So they helped, before sittin me down and play peircing me. Ahhhhh, do you see me tetter, even now, to remember it....

It wasn't all peaches n cream. As i was going through this excellent mind fuck, at the same time I was watching a boy who'd made all sorts of promises to me, who'd set his own limits with me, stand there and ignoring my journey, basically cheat on me. ahhhh. now THAT was a mind fuck. Kept me together, how all that I went through I can have focus and clarity. The peircing through the front of the neck, right in that nice little hollow, helped with that actually. Centered me immediately.... And cleared me out to wipe my hands of him. So emotionally after that, after so many other digressions of trust, I've been a bit closed away. I knew...

ahhhh, road trips. Sometimes walking, sometimes running, tripping, flipping, slidding in sideways...
sometimes throwing stones at a bottle....

So hey... there's other stuff but hmmmm...... yah.... goooood times that are so mingled in with hellish times.... And long lovely drives...

Learning and doing some really cool new things. Front flips off a diving board. Shaving a friend with a straight razor (which may be the very single solitary thing that is ever "straight" about ANY of my friends, including those very into the opposite sex). ;P An elevator, on a boat, the driver of a moving car, a public park.... at last, some new purity points checked off! Backcountry camping (which included forging a very cold river), and a new province checked off, Newfoundland. I've now seen all the provinces. (Sorry Territories, none of you, yet!) And my car is still going strong!

I came out here to discuss things with my heart, to find solitude, and quiet and hopefully direction. The prairies opened my heart, the shield and the east have been busy... here I am about to go to the eastern most point of North America... Often finding what we want to do is so much about finding what we Don't... some of that has been found, much is still the same. A bit of it all.... ahhhh.... ohhhh.... hmmmm....

right.

Off I go then.

Slipping time

Thu, 22 May 2008 20:39:07 GMT

HOLY CRAP BATGIRL!!!! Has it already been 4 days since the lusciousness that was The Garden??

Her holy pirate fiendishness throws a pretty decent lil get together it would seem, if I do say so myself. Which I do. ;P Say so, that is. And ONLY because everyone else said they had a good time. Though, in all honesty, I haven't talked yet to the 'lady o' the leg-gouging'. Still, everyone is giving me really super awesome positive feedback.... whooooooopie!

So I say success.

AND I even had a really great time!!!

The shows were HOT! OH MY GODDESSES !!!!!!!! Belle Desire used electricity in all the right ways, having everyone talking about it. While my scene was largely boring due to bad lighting not showing the bruises and welts and lumps forming right there on stage (no waiting time required!), showing the amazing powers of acceptance that our sexy lil T has, I still enjoyed it. ;) But then, I got to beat a guy with bamboo sticks, and THAT"S nothing to shake a stick at! (hehehe) A very well earned injury too! No no, not his, MINE! I hurt my shoulder beating him! hahahahahahaaaa

M ....ahhhhh M.... a little piss-taking of the venue, stripping to Timberlake's SexyBack and the slow and sultry Alannis version of My Humps, dressed as a clown complete with water spraying flower, and happy face on her panties.... oh how I love life!
See the video!!! Oh yes....
uhmmmm, yah... good stuff! We gave away a FABULOUS couple of prizes... a dance off on the poles for a hand-made collar, from Seraphina's ToyBox, a rope-bondage book and some naughty fridge magnets from Little Shop of Pleasures, Glitter from Lit, t's and gift certs from Bushido, Gift certs from DICIB, AND the amazing hand made leather bound copies of the Marquis de Sade's "120 Days of Sodom" and "Justine".... WOW!!!

And didn't you all love that music!!! I worked hard to get it together with the fabulous DJ Jinx to get that old school charleston, big band, swing mix going at the beginning and it worked SO well. Then ChrisB did his awesomeness, before Jinx re-took the booth and got us all movin to her dark n wonderful ways.

And I actually had time to breath! To dance! And to top it all off, at the very end of the night.... oh yes, I climbed the stripper pole RIGHT TO THE TOP! And hung there touching the I-beam for awhile.... ;)

SO... soon I am off n wandering away across the country.... debauching all the way.... ;P For I find myself fully free, totally single again.... and in quite the devious mood! Ohhhhhh yeah.... here I come.... ;> EEEEEEEEEEEVILGRIN

Before then.... (or in the Calgary-meantime)

Friday night at Soda (approx 11pm), Saturday at Vern's (7:30).

AND I may just go a rollerskating again, if I can swing it....err...would that be roll it? Who's up for some skatin pleasure?

XOXO

Almost time for a good debauching!

Tue, 13 May 2008 16:13:12 GMT

The Garden is growing and it's almost time to open the gates....

Set aside your evening, and a good idea to allow yourself Monday to recoup after all that sexiness! It's actually tiring to enjoy yourself so much! ;)

Sunday, May 18th at The Big Easy....

3064 32 ST NE

Doors at 8pm. Fetish or Formal wear Enforced, no cellphones or cameras.

Further info on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=11080340679

Yahoo Group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/TheFantasyGarden/

Friday May 16th at the Warehouse's UNDERGROUND will be a gathering and memorial for our dear friend who we lost on Sunday....

Home Free

Wed, 07 May 2008 19:04:48 GMT

That's it. I'm out.

Sale is over. Stuff is in storage (Tho some needs re-packing), what a crazy couple of weeks!!!!

And that's it. I'm a burlesque couch serfin pirate on the high seas of show after show, event after event, and coming up to my own event, The Garden.

HOME FREE and I STILL have a ton of stuff! SHEEEESH. giggle...at least i've kept my costume box nearby....

Thurs: at Soda (12 Ave btwn 1st and 2nd ST SW) the fundraiser / Bday party of a fabulous Carissa's journey to make a documentary on a uni-cycle race in Eastern Canada. The event is dress up--- called State Of Emergency. Think nurses, patients, hazmat, whatever....

Sat is a private party for MissChiff's Closet. Go see them at their fabulous Kensington store for info.

And of course, next week on Sunday, May 18th is the Garden..... the shows are looking to be top notch- working on such things as a suspension!!! We even have the long- absent and much loved Mandi, grande persona among many creative scenes here in Calgary, returning to do a scene!!! There are amazing prizes, and of course great DJ's, lots of play space and the sexy venue that is the
Big Easy. 3064 32 St NE

Hope to see you all out!

Book MeMe

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 21:53:01 GMT

These are the 106 books most often marked as “unread” by LibraryThing’s users. As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you’ve read, underline the ones you read for school, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish.

Here’s the twist: add (*) beside the ones you liked and would (or did) read again or recommend. Even if you read them for school in the first place.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna karennena*
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
The Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel: the fates of human societies
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler’s Wife
The Iliad
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations*
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books *
Memoirs of a Geisha*
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian : a novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
The Fountainhead
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath*
The Poisonwood Bible : a novel*
1984 *
Angels & Demons
The Inferno (and Purgatory and Paradise)
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels*
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes : a memoir
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse-five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon*
Oryx and Crake : a novel
Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita -
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye*
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance :
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbitt*
In Cold Blood : a true account of a multiple murder and its consequences
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
The Three Musketeers.

Interesting tidbit from me: There are a bunch on here that I have currently and am actually looking forward to reading...ohhh time... travel takes me away again... most - as you'll see - I read on my own, not in school...

Taken from smoken_mirrors e

Yo Edmonton!

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:24:04 GMT

Yummy.

Three years now I've gone to Shambhala, the huge music and love fest in the forests of BC, along the river that many swim nude in, with shows and play and all sorts of good things including Chai... good, real, homemade Chai. Not masala spice crap either. Real chai with spices, made in big pots....

I wait for it, because no matter how many times I try new places, i find it bland, hardly flavored milk....except one (so far)... this, btw, INCLUDES trying many chai houses in Seattle... ONE> In Edmonton.

Called Remedy.

YUMMY! It really is remedy. Their coffee is good too, I have a slight burn from sitting outside, yesterday, reading my fabulous book and drinking that coffee. Had a piece of "Legitimate Business Cake" that was tirimisu and cheesecake on an oreo crust. WHAT!??! Yah baby!!! Good things.

So what the HECKOLA am I doing in Edmonton??!!?

Visiting and getting some work done and generally taking a slight break from the chaos of doing shows (Demonika's was incredible!!!), promoting and organizing my show, (you know, The Garden! That sexy all in one fetish event!!??!?! May 18th at the Big Easy... plug plug!!) , packing and getting ready to move to NoWhere, that place of storage and serfing the great waves of couch-dom..this sounds familiar.... why? Because I've started a NEW BLOG!!! That's right... in amidst all this, I'm going to start a new, NON alternative lifestyles blog about my travelling. You know, one my family can see (as in, unlike THIS one ;)

but you all can see it, if ya wanta. just keep in mind that THIS is for fetish topics, and THAT is NOT. ;)

The Burlesque Adventuress

Don't worry, there will be LOTS of naughty things that I'll only post here.... ohhhh Toronto, Ottawa and the East coast are about to become a bit more Fiendish!!! ;P

Back in Cowtown tomorrow... Could use some help with the move!

And THIS WEEKEND: THE FINAL SELL EVERYTHING SALE AND HANGOUT !!!!!

Come by and buy !!! Garage sale of moving stuff, byob, hang out and enjoy what I hope will be sunny happy weather and my insane company. And take away my lovely precious things.

Saturday and Sunday
Noon till 6

1631 23 Ave NW

SHOW TONIGHT!!!!

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 19:36:46 GMT

Demonika's Symphony of Horrors is TONIGHT. (April 26th)

Tickets at the Door of the Warehouse. This is one show I say you don't want to miss, that is, if you like sexy, playful, dark, fiendish shows, or if you want to watch me do my thang on stage. A hard core thang tonight.

VERY fun show.

Moving / Journey Sale

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 03:58:25 GMT

Moving Sale! Friday and Saturday --> 1631 23 Ave NW

So much is going, things you kinda need anyways, to a ton of extras. I've gone through my spirit box and am selling crystals, incence, necklaces, nicknacks, I've gone through everything actually: kitchen, bathroom, camping and outdoor gear - ie: fishing rods to a golf bag holder, bike gear including pads, cleaning supplies, etc. Books and movies, towels, shower curtain, glasses, pots, dishes, LOTS OF COOL SWAG!!!

Come on by Say hello, say Good Bye.... support a local wanderer, get awesome stuff too!

(Approx: Friday 2-7, Sat 9 - 7 )

Moving Sale!

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 08:07:58 GMT

Garage Sale!!!
Friday April 18th 3pm till 7ish

Saturday April 19th 9am till 7ish

Moving Garage Sale and Hooligan's Meet!

Come buy stuff, hang out, say hello, buy stuff, support your local fiendish traveller - hopes - to - be - accepted - into - school person.

TONS of clothes, some costuming, kitchen, furniture... miscellaneous....

Msg me and I'll send the address. Email fiendishdreams at yahoo (dot) com for address

this is IN Calgary. The gorgeously warm city today that reminded me why I so love it here.... ahhhh....

I had cuddles and much drawing of fingers upon skin and it was goooooood.... sigh... lovely.

I then practiced beating two lovely guys for the upcoming Demonika's Symphony of Horrors.(April 26th - Warehouse) ... then a lovely din, some packing, and a couple of beers with a friend with some scantily clad beautiful women and the Flames' win.

A lovely day all around.......... And my Notes From the Universe.....

Happiness, dear Alison, is what greases the wheels of life. It's also what opens the floodgates, marshals the forces, commands the elements, raises the sun, aligns the stars, beats your heart, heals what hurts, turns the page, makes new friends, finds true love, calls the shots, waves the wand, connects the dots, feeds your mind, frees your soul, rocks the world, and pays compound interest.

Yeah, so easy to forget.

Wild on,
The Universe

I'm soooooooooo tired....... I really hope this garage sale goes well so I have less moving/packing stuff to deal with. AAAAND, of course, THE GARDEN.... tickets and posters are being worked on....

Damn it Chicka!!!

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 19:56:00 GMT

I'm loving this sitting here on my floor with my keyboard on my lap, or on my yoga ball (blue, because I know it's important to you), reading and researching STUFF.... Like Bull whips and stock whips, and trying to find a good place to invest in some really good ones.... oh yes... ;P

OOHHHH what wonderful time passing things.... My very long friend, an incredibly intellegent woman whom I love to have long discussions with while imbibing bestowings of the great fermentation processes, has very sadistically introduced me to this absolute shite... It's stealing my life away, like a car crash you COULD look away from, but fear to miss whatever sick horror you may see and in such slow and crane your neck, not paying attention to the road you are driving this death trap on, basically choosing and saying that you don't mind causing another car crash (possibly even creating that sick horror)... all in all being part of the whole wonderful cycle of amusement for the masses....

SO... what the hell am I getting on about?? She's kidnapped the hamsters that power my brain!!!!!

Well, I've decided to stick out my tongue, as such, and ptththththtttt you all... and share this perverseness...

DARE YE PEEK AT WHAT I SPEAK OF?!??!

Have you the courage?

(oh yes, you are quite right... that IS maniacal laughter you hear)

Violent Acres

(and her )
Contest
My ideas for your catchphrase contest (mostly because I think it would be funny in that sick twisted sort of way, for a bunch of vanilla people to end up HERE! )

.....gorging on the feast of your stupidity
...... Mean isn't a bad word, asshole.
..... Abusing you is for my own good, and that's really all that matters.
.... The abuse will end when your intellegence begins
..... Because it scares intellegent people when you try to think

hmmm, why don't * I * get to see my stats, who's reading my blog, how many times it gets seen.... and yet EVERY link I've followed from VA, today, is on blogger.com.... well... I'm starting to peek outside my nice little LJ room...

A very cool thing

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 21:02:40 GMT

Yes.. me thinks I'd like to be involved in any such wonderful things! I love how our cultures today are doing such fun 'stunts', not hurting anyone, just showing up and doing great, synchronized, silliness.....