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Oh lookie, She knows how to read!

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 07:46:30 GMT

Ok, so here's this BBC thing that's been going around.... (has anyone found the source or is this some big made up thing?)... anways, zastrazzi is incredible. His blog is always fun to read, bits n peices, information, great links for geeks that I usually don't quite understand, recipes and... well.. this. He linked to the books for each and every one. wow. zers. (where DOES he get the time?!)

Instructions:
1) Look at the list and put an 'X' for those you have read.
2) Add a '+' to the ones you LOVE.
3) Star (*) those you plan on reading.
4) Tally your total at the bottom.

[* ] 1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
[X+] 2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
[X ] 3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
[X+ ] 4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
[X+ ] 5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee 
[ ] 6 The Bible
[ ] 7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
[X+ ] 8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
[ ] 9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
[X ] 10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
[X+ ] 11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
[ ] 12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
[* ] 13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller 
[ ] 14 Complete Works of Shakespeare 
[ ] 15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
[X+ ] 16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien 
[ ] 17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulk
[X ] 18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
[* ] 19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
[ ] 20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
[ ] 21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
[* ] 22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
[ ] 23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
[ ] 24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
[X+] 25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
[ ] 26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
[ ] 27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
[X+] 28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck 
[* ] 29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll 
[ ] 30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame 
[X ] 31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
[X ] 32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
[ ] 33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
[ ] 34 Emma - Jane Austen
[ ] 35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
[X ] 36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
[X ] 37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hossein
[* ] 38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
[X ] 39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden 
[* ] 40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne 
[X ] 41 Animal Farm - George Orwell 
[X ] 42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown 
[ ] 43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
[ ] 44 A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving 
[ ] 45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins 
[X ] 46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
[ ] 47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
[X+ ] 48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
[X ] 49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding 
[ ] 50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
[* ] 51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel 
[ ] 52 Dune - Frank Herbert 
[ ] 53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
[ ] 54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
[ ] 55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
[ ] 56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
[ ] 57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
[ ] 58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley 
[X ] 59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
[* ] 60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
[ ] 61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck 
[* ] 62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
[ ] 63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
[ ] 64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
[ ] 65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
[X ] 66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac 
[ ] 67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
[? ] 68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
[ ] 69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
[X ] 70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
[X ] 71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
[X ] 72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
[X+ ] 73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
[ ] 74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson  (No, but I read his Dark Star Safari)
[* ] 75 Ulysses - James Joyce
[ ] 76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
[ ] 77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
[ ] 78 Germinal - Emile Zola
[ ] 79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
[ ] 80 Possession - AS Byatt
[ ] 81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
[ ] 82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
[ ] 83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
[ ] 84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
[ ] 85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
[ ] 86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
[X ] 87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White 
[* ] 88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
[ ] 89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle 
[ ] 90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
[ ] 91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
[ ] 92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery 
[ ] 93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
[ ] 94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
[ ] 95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
[ ] 96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
[* ] 97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas 
[ ] 98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare 
[ ] 99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
[* ] 100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

28 read, 10 that I love, 14 I want to read,
( is this list different than some on FB?)...

Could someone please turn off this sniffling machine called my nose? Sneezing is like orgasms? I DONT THINK SO! grrrrrr.

Luscious Luper

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 06:15:30 GMT

I hadn't really thought I'd go this year.... Afterwards it was a greater blessing than I'd ever have imagined...

Imagine - if you've been there - the big room, dungeon, people milling about, a social area on the other side of the room...I have completely forgotten about it all. There's this lean red head on her knees in front of me. That straight red hair is flowing out on the carpet in front of her, partly on the toy bag which is filled with crops and floggers, rope and ... oh what's this? Nipple clamps. I am having her boyfriend / dom, who is very new to this whole 'kinky' world, make a "zipper" (clothes pins strung out on a thin rope/cord so that they can all go on, and then all be pulled off together, a whole row of clothes pins tearing away).

She's demure, big kitten eyes right out of my fantasies, looking to me for kindness, and for pain.

She has an absolutely incredible body, face, attitude. She also turned me on, quite incredibly, that she is gut wrenchingly *hot*, and has a business sense, is getting an applicable degree, and, as I found out, is AWARE.

She also quite liked me, and then what we did....

Ahhh, it's a good life!

A lovely servant brought me up there and took fabulous care of me all weekend. We learned, together, how to deal with losses of concentration, and how to bring ourselves into a deeper clarity and understanding. I learned a lot about longer term play - as we were 'in role' for nearly the whole of the 3 days. For the first time I had my legs shaved. Not that others haven't wanted to, but I'm a particular gal with VERY particular needs in shaving (thicker hair requires totally different technique). At shaving he seems to be a pro, and in all things listened well, followed directions, and was caring, generous, and giving. What I mean by this isn't that he bought me things, but that he waited for me, was patient, had the car ready for me, was quick to do what was needed to rejoin me, and was ... involved with his heart. He didn't just give me a massage when I needed one, he did it with love and the extra attention that brings.

This brought me my first assisted stretching Thai massage!

It also brought me the full awareness that I * REALLY * like this life and the lifestyle... SO. For the very very lucky few, I am now accepting servants, for non sexual play - that is, obviously, both sexes. For trying something new, training singles or couples (or more), or for harder 'edge' play.

On another note: At long last, I also got some other sides of myself taken care of. The greatest drawback was that it was over so quickly, as I would have loved to play that way all night, if not for a week or a few months.... oh, come on, let's be real. That's what I want FULL TIME. Oh, the hair pulling! perfect. Just absolutely perfect. Quick pulls, long drawn out ones, stretching me back and holding me there. Never did any stray hairs catch with that sharpness, always supported yet firm. Ahhhhh there are such contented sighs....
The direction, the incredible pain through simple pressure point technique, and let off before it pulled me away from the joy and into that state of 'dealing for his pleasure', rather than just pleasure. (a big difference! ). Ahh, happy weekend. Bite mark bruises gave me serene reminders for a week.

Ok blog land... naughty nights!

Lupercalia 2009

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 05:29:28 GMT

Oh so excited by the prospects of this weekend! Edmonton's Lupercalia comes again, and this is the tenth year anniversary.

Presenters like Elwood, always one of my favorites, and Fifth Angel, Peggy O, and Sir Scott as well as so many more. It's always been some of the greatest days of my year, so I'm quite excited!

In other news... well, I've been travelling and far too little naughtiness has been afoot. Humbug.

I AM working on venues. There's little whisperings of hope and ideas of some momentum... But then, this is what happens when a home free galavanting princess pirate creates a nest.

I'm doing the happy winter nesting.

Though I feel the spring winds starting to sparkle some change through my hair. Those sweet softer winds that crave for sensuality to awaken again, along with the breath of the world.

So all of a sudden I seem to be intrigued by the idea of dating and...

...and, well... there's always the desires to really give this place a proper christening, so to speak. ha!

(Oh, and in Vanilla news: I made, from scratch, a fabulous red thai rice and mixed bean soup with lemon chicken and sauteed veg. It is GOOD. )

Distracted lately??

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 09:14:37 GMT

Hmmmm. Oh yah! Lookie that blog thing.

I feel like blogging this late eve when I am tired and my bed calls but am fighting it... Kind of like being a petulant child screaming NOT to go to bed yet, at.... my self.... uhhh huh.... BUT COME ON ...it's so much FUN!!!! I don't WANNA go to bed... oh wait.. yes I * DO * .... oh that nice bed. At last. A bed. MY Bed. With a feather duvet- so long dreamed of and yearned for... and that sexy frame..

laugh

I get like this sometimes. I'm tired, but am up. doing nothing. doing lots. Puttering.

Tonight I roasted pecans in hopes of pecan crusted halibut. I did some research ala asking friends, then online research, and am ready... ish. The roasted pecans are a tad too brownish and are now further impetus to my wanting to make cookies. (I think maybe Pecan cranberry chocolate chunk oat cookies).

I will roast some NEW pecans tomorrow, then use the herbed bread crumbs from home-made breads to crust the Halibut with. Well traveled Halibut. It was brought from Alaska (where I met B), to Colorado (where B flew me for a fabulous week of skiing and some music fest to sideline some fabulous pre and post skiing muscle relaxants), to here. HERE (where the Halibut now resides in wait for the journey to my belly).

Here in my brand spankin fabulous Home, with a capital H because it's really my Home. MY very FIRST apartment of my own.

The pecan crusted halibut will go with the corn bread I made tonight. As well as the black beans I soaked and cooked today, maybe with basmati. Spicy black bean basmati.... hmmmm....

Cooking in My Home.... My own home.... with My kitchen in my pretty lil apartment....

I come in, I know it's in the state I left it in, that there will be no one up, sleeping, coming or going, no one I did not invite - and if any of this is not true I can just go ahead and kick their ass out (even if that means some police help.... I sure wouldn't mind SOME kind of sexy guns n handcuff action going on in here!)

That about sums up the update.... I guess. I was in Alaska, following Dawson City where I hitch hiked from Shambhala in Southern BC, all the way to Inuvik, hopped a plane and went to Tuktoyaktuk, and put my bare feet in the Arctic Ocean. I was determined to strip right there on the beach in front of everyone and hop on in, but the 2 degree weather out-determined me. Also went in a traditional icehouse, 25 feet down in the permafrost. Waves of ice and mud walls, crystal coated sparkling ceiling....

There are many adventures, but alas, sadly little of the really important (for this journal) sexy stuff.... Well... besides I found one of the best post-skiing muscle relaxants on the 'market'..... Multiple Brand Orgasms.... Sure does the trick.

Also helpful to follow that dose with hot tub and sauna.....

Chicken, Alaska has a gift shop with all this kitchy touristy stuff that says, with a chicken and an egg, "I got Laid in Chicken, Alaska". I was staying One night to check out the bar I'd heard so very much about. Thought to myself "Wouldn't that be cool to earn that t-shirt!??! ...but no.. silly, i'm only passing through and I don't just meet people and.....

..... stay on for months.....

Earned that t-shirt till it was well worn out, I guess. SO many fabulous, astounding view-point places I didn't get to have sex though.... vanilla. Very vanilla. But vanilla is good too. I like mine with hot chocolate chip cookies and occassional floggings, but hey, can't always get it all at once! ;P

Well, in more news... I *AM * considering another Garden, and certain sexy classes, and more tequila....

Ahh, I am now WITH HOME, rather than home free..... for a few months anyways..... The goodness is exponential. From the deep bath to the duvet to the lamps to the island in the kitchen, and more more more... now to go get the bbq. and try to get my car fixed a bit. Accepting gifts of car repairs, ski holidays and massages, besides the usual sapphires, fine wines and good coffees. ;P

The only thing really terribly missing -oh, well, yes, the liquor cabinet is frightfully bare, but that's not it.... it's a good christening.

This place needs some working in!

Debonaire Debaucheries, the Garden Returns

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 19:53:34 GMT

The third installation of The Garden ....(insert drum roll here).....

Sunday, August 3rd, 2008.
Monday is the holiday.

CHANGE: Tickets will be available at the door ONLY. For the ever low price, including prizes, shows, dancing, dj's, the fabulous Shae MCing, a licenced venue, AND lots and lots of private play space, all for only $15.

Doors at 8pm,

The princess pirate is returning, and we're having a rummin good ol time, beach party- pirates and ninjas and general other fiends style, pan-sexual, pan-fetish play party....

Pirate and Ninja and the like Costumes welcome, or of course, Fetish or Formal wear- ONLY.

The Big Easy
3064 - 32 St NE

Remember: No cameras, but hopefully our professional photographer will be onsite should you wish a photo of your beautiful selves, free of charge.

In other news, I have advice for all my adoring fans of ?? 2??.... IF you are going to have sex in a public place, make it a good place. ooohhhh, just for an off the wall idea.... say an elevator... don't make it just any ol one, but make it, say, the elevator at our very own Art Museum of Canada....call it ' installation art' or, if in water...not just some back country unheard of pond that no one ever goes to, but one of the wonders of the world, Victoria Falls.... just sayin. Better points, more pronounced points, really. ;)

I'm in Antigonish. Cool. And the Cabot Trail really is THAT beautiful.

So..... since i came on out here to open my heart and find direction..... I got my heart opening up, feel really centered on at least a lot more of my wants and needs emotionally, but not on the questions of life that I meant to get centered on.... reminds me that often what we are focusing on is the wrong thing.... but hey...still... finding my way somehow regardless, isnt' that interesting... somehow, on the side, it's working its own self out. Just like it does.... I'm not talking trivial things here, but really emotionally impacting, mentally, and spiritually challenging questions of what to do about my physical body- ie: where in the world to place it over the next few years.... and why.....

I've found that I REALLY like travelling with someone that is fun to be with in emotionally connected, intimate ways, but learning that was tough because what made me learn this was being emotionally involved with a person whose actions spoke of a type of disregard that has been very painful...wrong person, right lesson?? Or another reminder of me? What is the lesson?
Partially I think it is that one day I will very much enjoy travelling with that person that's always been in my shadow world, another part tells me that the lesson is that I have to let go of 'relationships', in a very surreal idea that has started coming to me....
And of course part of me is just hurt, and feeling very .... used, while still very much caring about this person and missing the very rare presence of that type of comfort in my life... a rarity that lent me again to accepting things that would be better unaccepted for an idea fuelled by hope, by yearning, and, well, by so many moments that can only be described as magical, glorious, soul filling... you know, those hugely pretty words, for experiences that kept me...wanting.

I've also found that renegade camping gives me a gift that I very much appreciate, and am glad to have gotten- but that I also need some availability of comfort, occassionally- of a bathroom, of a bed even, maybe. Really, of staying STILL for a few days- which i have not done enough of... not just still, no...but in one place that also has solace. (One place, in Africa was simply a hostel that I was camping in, that had nice grass, some shade, and wow- a tv.... oh, and a pool. ;) Just a nice clean place to hang out. with a kitchen. Oh to spend a week with a kitchen.... Yes. I have been washed by the lovely warm Atlantic Ocean that fills this side of Nova Scotia, have spent so many lovely days mostly on my own, exploring, camping, hiking, experiencing a great deal of the joy of the road and absolutely LOVING driving my own car. I love that car! And now I also am moving towards a readiness for PEI, for family, for being at my parents place a few weeks.....

good thing, cause when I get home it's going to be HECTIC.

PS: SInce I am deciding to share with you all this very intimate look at deeper me, please remember that I am STILL a hooligan debaucherous fiend and now I'm an especially horny one. GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrooooowwwwwwwlllll.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Oh, and I need a way to get to, and in, Shambhala. (in sooo many ways).....

Debauching Canada

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 16:50:47 GMT

Sorry to leave you all folks! I've been away and away, updating the nice clean travel blog and wondering how on earth to pop on over to say what I wanted to say here....

What on earth could I say!??!

It's SO wonderfully debaucherous, so titilatingly sexy, that I really don't know how I could let you all, who know very well who I am, in on all of it. I really should set up a private journal and find a way to get millions of readers by telling all the fabulous stories of the behind the scenes, early morning parks, rehearsals, after parties, play parties, manyway relationships in polyamory to nice pretty little orgies and ...oh, well.... you get the idea.

Oh, yes, well, I set out jokingly (ahem cough cough) saying that I am a Princess Pirate in my prairie pirate vessel, out to debauch our fair nation. I've actually mostly just been having a fabulous, but very decidedly not debaucherous, journey. Lots of renegade camping, a fair amount of drinking, visiting some wonderful friends and then even travelling for a few weeks with J....but fear not, my lovelies! It hasn't all been boring ol princess cheers-ing with sipping tequila, and long long drives without any side road pleasure breaks. There's even been some down home good ol debauchery in there. A wee bit. And my first ever car, that pirate vessel of hooliganery, well, it's been well christened...though I am quite disappointed that as of yet I haven't been queen of the castle up on the roof.... hmmmm.... how to change that..... hmmmm, details that I seem to have trouble sharing here... oh... the many uses of doors! ahhhhh....

But that brings me back to you all knowing me. ;) hehehe.... Which means you know it's been goooood times. I will tell you this.... I JUST missed a fetish party in Toronto, found NOTHING in Ottawa, and AT LAST AT LAST was there *just* on time for the monthly fetish party in one of my love of loves, and once-home of Montreal.....

I had a gas mask put on me and was completely covered, totally and fully wrapped up in latex. (for those that don't know, think latex in a roll like a larger roll of saran wrap, being tightly bound around...or go see that inconspicuous photo on FB) ...so I'm all wrapped up. Then carried around the bar, sat outside, flipped upside down, made to feel like I could fall off the stage, teased and generally well fucked with. Then I was told I could get myself out. Stick a thumb through and rip and pull myself out. Well holy geez! It's not that easy! Got a hole going, but to rip that stuff while you're still stuck is QUITE the mission!!!... EGADS! ;P So they helped, before sittin me down and play peircing me. Ahhhhh, do you see me tetter, even now, to remember it....

It wasn't all peaches n cream. As i was going through this excellent mind fuck, at the same time I was watching a boy who'd made all sorts of promises to me, who'd set his own limits with me, stand there and ignoring my journey, basically cheat on me. ahhhh. now THAT was a mind fuck. Kept me together, how all that I went through I can have focus and clarity. The peircing through the front of the neck, right in that nice little hollow, helped with that actually. Centered me immediately.... And cleared me out to wipe my hands of him. So emotionally after that, after so many other digressions of trust, I've been a bit closed away. I knew...

ahhhh, road trips. Sometimes walking, sometimes running, tripping, flipping, slidding in sideways...
sometimes throwing stones at a bottle....

So hey... there's other stuff but hmmmm...... yah.... goooood times that are so mingled in with hellish times.... And long lovely drives...

Learning and doing some really cool new things. Front flips off a diving board. Shaving a friend with a straight razor (which may be the very single solitary thing that is ever "straight" about ANY of my friends, including those very into the opposite sex). ;P An elevator, on a boat, the driver of a moving car, a public park.... at last, some new purity points checked off! Backcountry camping (which included forging a very cold river), and a new province checked off, Newfoundland. I've now seen all the provinces. (Sorry Territories, none of you, yet!) And my car is still going strong!

I came out here to discuss things with my heart, to find solitude, and quiet and hopefully direction. The prairies opened my heart, the shield and the east have been busy... here I am about to go to the eastern most point of North America... Often finding what we want to do is so much about finding what we Don't... some of that has been found, much is still the same. A bit of it all.... ahhhh.... ohhhh.... hmmmm....

right.

Off I go then.

Slipping time

Thu, 22 May 2008 20:39:07 GMT

HOLY CRAP BATGIRL!!!! Has it already been 4 days since the lusciousness that was The Garden??

Her holy pirate fiendishness throws a pretty decent lil get together it would seem, if I do say so myself. Which I do. ;P Say so, that is. And ONLY because everyone else said they had a good time. Though, in all honesty, I haven't talked yet to the 'lady o' the leg-gouging'. Still, everyone is giving me really super awesome positive feedback.... whooooooopie!

So I say success.

AND I even had a really great time!!!

The shows were HOT! OH MY GODDESSES !!!!!!!! Belle Desire used electricity in all the right ways, having everyone talking about it. While my scene was largely boring due to bad lighting not showing the bruises and welts and lumps forming right there on stage (no waiting time required!), showing the amazing powers of acceptance that our sexy lil T has, I still enjoyed it. ;) But then, I got to beat a guy with bamboo sticks, and THAT"S nothing to shake a stick at! (hehehe) A very well earned injury too! No no, not his, MINE! I hurt my shoulder beating him! hahahahahahaaaa

M ....ahhhhh M.... a little piss-taking of the venue, stripping to Timberlake's SexyBack and the slow and sultry Alannis version of My Humps, dressed as a clown complete with water spraying flower, and happy face on her panties.... oh how I love life!
See the video!!! Oh yes....
uhmmmm, yah... good stuff! We gave away a FABULOUS couple of prizes... a dance off on the poles for a hand-made collar, from Seraphina's ToyBox, a rope-bondage book and some naughty fridge magnets from Little Shop of Pleasures, Glitter from Lit, t's and gift certs from Bushido, Gift certs from DICIB, AND the amazing hand made leather bound copies of the Marquis de Sade's "120 Days of Sodom" and "Justine".... WOW!!!

And didn't you all love that music!!! I worked hard to get it together with the fabulous DJ Jinx to get that old school charleston, big band, swing mix going at the beginning and it worked SO well. Then ChrisB did his awesomeness, before Jinx re-took the booth and got us all movin to her dark n wonderful ways.

And I actually had time to breath! To dance! And to top it all off, at the very end of the night.... oh yes, I climbed the stripper pole RIGHT TO THE TOP! And hung there touching the I-beam for awhile.... ;)

SO... soon I am off n wandering away across the country.... debauching all the way.... ;P For I find myself fully free, totally single again.... and in quite the devious mood! Ohhhhhh yeah.... here I come.... ;> EEEEEEEEEEEVILGRIN

Before then.... (or in the Calgary-meantime)

Friday night at Soda (approx 11pm), Saturday at Vern's (7:30).

AND I may just go a rollerskating again, if I can swing it....err...would that be roll it? Who's up for some skatin pleasure?

XOXO

Almost time for a good debauching!

Tue, 13 May 2008 16:13:12 GMT

The Garden is growing and it's almost time to open the gates....

Set aside your evening, and a good idea to allow yourself Monday to recoup after all that sexiness! It's actually tiring to enjoy yourself so much! ;)

Sunday, May 18th at The Big Easy....

3064 32 ST NE

Doors at 8pm. Fetish or Formal wear Enforced, no cellphones or cameras.

Further info on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=11080340679

Yahoo Group: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/TheFantasyGarden/

Friday May 16th at the Warehouse's UNDERGROUND will be a gathering and memorial for our dear friend who we lost on Sunday....

Home Free

Wed, 07 May 2008 19:04:48 GMT

That's it. I'm out.

Sale is over. Stuff is in storage (Tho some needs re-packing), what a crazy couple of weeks!!!!

And that's it. I'm a burlesque couch serfin pirate on the high seas of show after show, event after event, and coming up to my own event, The Garden.

HOME FREE and I STILL have a ton of stuff! SHEEEESH. giggle...at least i've kept my costume box nearby....

Thurs: at Soda (12 Ave btwn 1st and 2nd ST SW) the fundraiser / Bday party of a fabulous Carissa's journey to make a documentary on a uni-cycle race in Eastern Canada. The event is dress up--- called State Of Emergency. Think nurses, patients, hazmat, whatever....

Sat is a private party for MissChiff's Closet. Go see them at their fabulous Kensington store for info.

And of course, next week on Sunday, May 18th is the Garden..... the shows are looking to be top notch- working on such things as a suspension!!! We even have the long- absent and much loved Mandi, grande persona among many creative scenes here in Calgary, returning to do a scene!!! There are amazing prizes, and of course great DJ's, lots of play space and the sexy venue that is the
Big Easy. 3064 32 St NE

Hope to see you all out!

Book MeMe

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 21:53:01 GMT

These are the 106 books most often marked as “unread” by LibraryThing’s users. As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you’ve read, underline the ones you read for school, italicize the ones you started but didn’t finish.

Here’s the twist: add (*) beside the ones you liked and would (or did) read again or recommend. Even if you read them for school in the first place.

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna karennena*
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Ulysses
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
The Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel: the fates of human societies
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler’s Wife
The Iliad
Emma
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations*
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books *
Memoirs of a Geisha*
Middlesex
Quicksilver
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian : a novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World
The Fountainhead
Foucault’s Pendulum
Middlemarch
Frankenstein
The Count of Monte Cristo
Dracula
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath*
The Poisonwood Bible : a novel*
1984 *
Angels & Demons
The Inferno (and Purgatory and Paradise)
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D’Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver’s Travels*
Les Misérables
The Corrections
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
Dune
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela’s Ashes : a memoir
The God of Small Things
A People’s History of the United States : 1492-present
Cryptonomicon
Neverwhere
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
Dubliners
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
Beloved
Slaughterhouse-five
The Scarlet Letter
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon*
Oryx and Crake : a novel
Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita -
Persuasion
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye*
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance :
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity’s Rainbow
The Hobbitt*
In Cold Blood : a true account of a multiple murder and its consequences
White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
The Three Musketeers.

Interesting tidbit from me: There are a bunch on here that I have currently and am actually looking forward to reading...ohhh time... travel takes me away again... most - as you'll see - I read on my own, not in school...

Taken from smoken_mirrors e

Yo Edmonton!

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 20:24:04 GMT

Yummy.

Three years now I've gone to Shambhala, the huge music and love fest in the forests of BC, along the river that many swim nude in, with shows and play and all sorts of good things including Chai... good, real, homemade Chai. Not masala spice crap either. Real chai with spices, made in big pots....

I wait for it, because no matter how many times I try new places, i find it bland, hardly flavored milk....except one (so far)... this, btw, INCLUDES trying many chai houses in Seattle... ONE> In Edmonton.

Called Remedy.

YUMMY! It really is remedy. Their coffee is good too, I have a slight burn from sitting outside, yesterday, reading my fabulous book and drinking that coffee. Had a piece of "Legitimate Business Cake" that was tirimisu and cheesecake on an oreo crust. WHAT!??! Yah baby!!! Good things.

So what the HECKOLA am I doing in Edmonton??!!?

Visiting and getting some work done and generally taking a slight break from the chaos of doing shows (Demonika's was incredible!!!), promoting and organizing my show, (you know, The Garden! That sexy all in one fetish event!!??!?! May 18th at the Big Easy... plug plug!!) , packing and getting ready to move to NoWhere, that place of storage and serfing the great waves of couch-dom..this sounds familiar.... why? Because I've started a NEW BLOG!!! That's right... in amidst all this, I'm going to start a new, NON alternative lifestyles blog about my travelling. You know, one my family can see (as in, unlike THIS one ;)

but you all can see it, if ya wanta. just keep in mind that THIS is for fetish topics, and THAT is NOT. ;)

The Burlesque Adventuress

Don't worry, there will be LOTS of naughty things that I'll only post here.... ohhhh Toronto, Ottawa and the East coast are about to become a bit more Fiendish!!! ;P

Back in Cowtown tomorrow... Could use some help with the move!

And THIS WEEKEND: THE FINAL SELL EVERYTHING SALE AND HANGOUT !!!!!

Come by and buy !!! Garage sale of moving stuff, byob, hang out and enjoy what I hope will be sunny happy weather and my insane company. And take away my lovely precious things.

Saturday and Sunday
Noon till 6

1631 23 Ave NW

SHOW TONIGHT!!!!

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 19:36:46 GMT

Demonika's Symphony of Horrors is TONIGHT. (April 26th)

Tickets at the Door of the Warehouse. This is one show I say you don't want to miss, that is, if you like sexy, playful, dark, fiendish shows, or if you want to watch me do my thang on stage. A hard core thang tonight.

VERY fun show.

Moving / Journey Sale

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 03:58:25 GMT

Moving Sale! Friday and Saturday --> 1631 23 Ave NW

So much is going, things you kinda need anyways, to a ton of extras. I've gone through my spirit box and am selling crystals, incence, necklaces, nicknacks, I've gone through everything actually: kitchen, bathroom, camping and outdoor gear - ie: fishing rods to a golf bag holder, bike gear including pads, cleaning supplies, etc. Books and movies, towels, shower curtain, glasses, pots, dishes, LOTS OF COOL SWAG!!!

Come on by Say hello, say Good Bye.... support a local wanderer, get awesome stuff too!

(Approx: Friday 2-7, Sat 9 - 7 )

Moving Sale!

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 08:07:58 GMT

Garage Sale!!!
Friday April 18th 3pm till 7ish

Saturday April 19th 9am till 7ish

Moving Garage Sale and Hooligan's Meet!

Come buy stuff, hang out, say hello, buy stuff, support your local fiendish traveller - hopes - to - be - accepted - into - school person.

TONS of clothes, some costuming, kitchen, furniture... miscellaneous....

Msg me and I'll send the address. Email fiendishdreams at yahoo (dot) com for address

this is IN Calgary. The gorgeously warm city today that reminded me why I so love it here.... ahhhh....

I had cuddles and much drawing of fingers upon skin and it was goooooood.... sigh... lovely.

I then practiced beating two lovely guys for the upcoming Demonika's Symphony of Horrors.(April 26th - Warehouse) ... then a lovely din, some packing, and a couple of beers with a friend with some scantily clad beautiful women and the Flames' win.

A lovely day all around.......... And my Notes From the Universe.....

Happiness, dear Alison, is what greases the wheels of life. It's also what opens the floodgates, marshals the forces, commands the elements, raises the sun, aligns the stars, beats your heart, heals what hurts, turns the page, makes new friends, finds true love, calls the shots, waves the wand, connects the dots, feeds your mind, frees your soul, rocks the world, and pays compound interest.

Yeah, so easy to forget.

Wild on,
The Universe

I'm soooooooooo tired....... I really hope this garage sale goes well so I have less moving/packing stuff to deal with. AAAAND, of course, THE GARDEN.... tickets and posters are being worked on....

Damn it Chicka!!!

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 19:56:00 GMT

I'm loving this sitting here on my floor with my keyboard on my lap, or on my yoga ball (blue, because I know it's important to you), reading and researching STUFF.... Like Bull whips and stock whips, and trying to find a good place to invest in some really good ones.... oh yes... ;P

OOHHHH what wonderful time passing things.... My very long friend, an incredibly intellegent woman whom I love to have long discussions with while imbibing bestowings of the great fermentation processes, has very sadistically introduced me to this absolute shite... It's stealing my life away, like a car crash you COULD look away from, but fear to miss whatever sick horror you may see and in such slow and crane your neck, not paying attention to the road you are driving this death trap on, basically choosing and saying that you don't mind causing another car crash (possibly even creating that sick horror)... all in all being part of the whole wonderful cycle of amusement for the masses....

SO... what the hell am I getting on about?? She's kidnapped the hamsters that power my brain!!!!!

Well, I've decided to stick out my tongue, as such, and ptththththtttt you all... and share this perverseness...

DARE YE PEEK AT WHAT I SPEAK OF?!??!

Have you the courage?

(oh yes, you are quite right... that IS maniacal laughter you hear)

Violent Acres

(and her )
Contest
My ideas for your catchphrase contest (mostly because I think it would be funny in that sick twisted sort of way, for a bunch of vanilla people to end up HERE! )

.....gorging on the feast of your stupidity
...... Mean isn't a bad word, asshole.
..... Abusing you is for my own good, and that's really all that matters.
.... The abuse will end when your intellegence begins
..... Because it scares intellegent people when you try to think

hmmm, why don't * I * get to see my stats, who's reading my blog, how many times it gets seen.... and yet EVERY link I've followed from VA, today, is on blogger.com.... well... I'm starting to peek outside my nice little LJ room...

A very cool thing

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 21:02:40 GMT

Yes.. me thinks I'd like to be involved in any such wonderful things! I love how our cultures today are doing such fun 'stunts', not hurting anyone, just showing up and doing great, synchronized, silliness.....

Recipes for Deliciousness

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 23:18:43 GMT

Oh yah, I came on FB for THIS...and ended up posting a bit late about the Garden, then reading my friends' pages... hmmmm, I want to say it right here. zastrazzi, your post regarding the Aryan Guard / Anti-Racist rally was excellent, and much... uhmmm, calmer, than I am able to say.

SO:

PRE - RECIPE for Deliciousness....

I ran along and stayed right next to, or as close to the AG as I could, all along 8th Ave. I have a TON of footage, including a police officer very harshly using his bike to hit and knock over an anti-racist that accidentally got in the wrong spot when police were starting to create a 'line' on 8th ave.... YET, allowed one of the AG to stand in our midst and show off his swastika tatoo on his chest while shouting and getting us rilled up, inciting violence in our midst- behind OUR lines the police had long established at City Hall. Why is it we are treated so harshly, yet these neo nazi's are allowed to break all the rules? Could we have an enquiry please!?!? To reiterrate, as well, they were smoking on City Hall steps, spitting, standing behind our lines, and a few of them absolutely stunk of alcohol- in public - all without fine or question.... I listened in to a conversation with one police officer and a guy, and then asked why they weren't being charged. The officer said "...you know as well as I do, in a situation like this, it's best that they just do their little thing, and then they go away"

FYI: That's off a video I have- it's an exact quote... Off video he then told me it'd just incite violence (when I asked about ticketing them for things like spitting).
Zass says it perfectly in his blog:
"...That said, there were enough instances where they showed what I would
call unusual restraint to cause concern. There were any number of laws
being broken by the Aryan Guard (he goes on with)...The police reason for not ticketing? "It might cause violence."

Uhm. If the way to avoid getting ticketed is to threaten to cause
violence, I think we have a real problem on our hands."

So....our Police Force feels it's best to just let things happen, and they'll just go away on their own, disappear, like they don't exist off camera, away from their rally??

WELL.....

ANNNNNNY WAY... The other thing, folks, is that pics aren't up cause I don't have (BUT AM LOOKING FOR!!!) photoshop. Need to put proper completely undo-able blocks on faces due to people being followed and the *Possibility* of violence- so we've respectfully kept other people's faces away from the net.... BUT, I've got some ones I've been given permission to use, one very similar was in the paper tho...and other ones of just covered faces.. and the AG. Man OH MAN...to have to cover my face in fear of attack... don't know if I will do that next time.... but then, I was around the the punk-skin head split and violence downtown in the early and mid nineties.... and i know all too well (and personally) just how nastily violent they will be....

Gives a good idea of the amount of Anti-Racists... Approx 150-200... if you can imagine this group surrounding and jeering the following little group all the way down 8th ave... I imagine it scared a few people...

The Aryan Guard's 20-25 people.

AND NOW, without any further ado..... A RECIEPE FOR DELICIOUSNESS!!!!

A salad.

Chicken breast, 40 min in the oven on approx 350, covered in salt and pepper, a little cajun spice, cinnamon, and fresh ginger. Flip at half way with some ground cumin and more cinnamon, s+p.

A salad.

Mixed green ala carton O mix spicy greens.
Fresh Mango chunks
Apple chunks (organic pink lady)
raisins (Golden)
Cranberries -dried (unsweetened)
Almonds
Sunflower seeds
dates- small chunks

Chicken sliced and placed on top, sesame seeds sprinkled over the whole.

Served with a bowl of Butternut Squash Soup care of Campbells tetrapac. (eeeeuuwwww tetrapacks, yuuummmm soup)

YUMM YUM!!

After a Rest

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 20:58:15 GMT

The Garden.... ahhhhh..... sigh... lovely. Growing beautifully... such lovely colors, sensations- OH the Leather, the PVC, the Latex, the SKIN!!! Oh those gorgeous wild smells, all the pheremones, the sounds... the squeels, the ....

Well...

Great thanks to all who came... ;) Your support, ( along with the gazzilion requests) have boosted me onward.... SO....

The Garden continues to grow! Next event will be.....(drum roll here)

May Long Weekend Sunday !!!

I'd say it went very well... only because from all I've heard from everyone else is highly positive, if not raving, if not just downright gushing with thanks...it's been a very long time and once used to this outpouring of energy, the chance for expression, dance, play, friends, well...it's so very difficult to go without. We've gone without 10 months, and at last, at long long last.....

On my part, being the organizer, well- MUCH to do. I'd try to run away and see people but kept being called back for one thing or another :) Fine by me, people seemed to have a great time, which tells me I did my job.... Oh well, the snags we're working on. The horrendous mess of coat check... sooo sorry folks. It was all sorted on my end, but alas, things apparently did not come through, and it's being worked on. The sound- a high priority to sort it out... Something with the host system and the PK system not working properly...

My time... ahhhh... All the wonderful things I only got to HEAR about.... I must find a way to have time to play, to visit.... At least I got a little tiny bit of dancing in... and. Oh AND... dancin in my panties in front of the PK speakers!!! (Now I'm just hoping Shambhala is nice n warm this year, cause I'm SOOO going down to the Village and playing there in the afternoon!!!)

On other notes, I slept 4 hrs after the event, got up and went for coffee and decided that a long lonesome drive to Edmonton was not good for a friend, and what a great time to visit chainsofchaos so I made a call and off I went... Yup. Just like that. Hopped home, threw some clothes and toiletries into my backpack and AWAY!!!

What a lovely time. Thanks S, your are always so wonderful for my heart n soul. My lonesome lack of cuddles have been slightly (ever so slightly) assuaged. (My doctor has prescribed more cuddles though, and you know I always listen to my doctor) ;P

Visited some other friends as well, and very joyfully got to meet their new baby girl. What a cutie! In usual ~A fashion, I hopped out to the highway and put to use two of my favorite body parts..... ;)

My thumb and my feet....

So... back to work.. Computer is freakin out on me... and I don't have the cds anymore.... SOOO... Its time. I'm now officially looking to buy a Mac laptop.... Anyone??

Have I mentioned my fabulous new Pirate Ship, the Black Beauty, messenger of MOI???? ;) laugh...

Sooooo back to ME!!!

Thu, 20 Mar 2008 06:52:21 GMT

Realized I haven't mentioned it (even to my own folks!) hehehe.....

I bought a great steed of transport, of the great Messenger God, he of commerce, trade and profit, of travellers, pilgrims and thieves. Suitable yesno!??!

Oh, well it's a bit older, but not so much as I (cough.), and anyhow, it's my very first! OH to at long last have that virginity taken!!! What sweet sweet bliss, to ride and be driven all over town, to have this great chariot of power!!! OF travel....

Oh the thoughts of driving .... and driving.... and... well.... ;) Ahhhh, the road calls, the next grande adventure....

You * DO * realize I'm talking about my new used Mercury CAR, right?!

SUNDAY!!! We're opening a bit earlier than tix say- 8pm, for all you early birds (but if you knew... I doubt you'd leave too early!)... and there's a kitchen for nibblies before/after all that play exhertion :)

AND OH THE PRIZES!!!! SOOO many... ahhhhhhhh... * THAT *, my friends, is the satisfied sigh of a girl who's loving this creation journey. What a garden to grow!!!

List so far: 2 * $50 GC for Bushido and 2 tshirts. 2 collars and massage oil from Seraphina's Toybox. PVC gloves and a very beautiful blindfold from MissChiff's closet. 2 pairs of undies, a coffin book and GC from DICIB.....

Have I mentioned PK sounds enough yet?? I can't hardly WAIT to vibrate in my PANTIES AGAINST THOSE SPEAKERS!!!!!

Hey, no really, I really do want you all to have a great ol time there! I've put a LOT into this, and hope that I can continue doing them, for ALL OF US...

BUt let's be serious.... it's not like I'm Mother Theresa putting my own wants aside for you lot! I'm doing this cause i was going crazy for it. :) I've been wanting to go out in the streets in my undies and dance.... and don't you DARE wish me ill on this event JUST so I will,. either!!! I... I... I've been CRAVING hot nude beaches .... And .... and dancing... and ... and... whips n chains n ... knives OH MY!!!

I have this IDEA, see.... this thing... with SARAN WRAP! and a knife.... or a few knives... and using my super kitty ninja climbing skills... and....

;)

Sunday...... aaaahhhhhhhhh..........

Postings...

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 19:32:12 GMT

I'm trying to post info about The Garden on a bunch of online communities and groups.... I have realized I need a website page with the poster up.

So I tried to make a free geocities account but the file size of the image is too big and now it won't work.... I don't have photoshop to change the file size... first opened it and it went to Paint...boy did that slow me down. I came to a complete 15 minute work halt as my computer tried to deal with that....

I think i need to find something better than geocities... ;) It's now not working at all... and anyhow, teh biggo file size exceeds my daily limit and won't allow access to anyone... darned... Guess I'll have to start a yahoo group, but really also I need to have at least one page hosted somewhere... preferrably a few pages... well... not much i can do now...

Back to all these really interesting sites....

How do I add links to this thing?? If I have to change my loverly page just to add links.... errrrggghhhh....

So what's this... LJ will no longer be free?? oh dear.... well, if so, never mind the links thing. ;>

REMINDER: THE GARDEN....

Tickets $12 in Advance from Priape, DICIB, Bushido Tatoo, and MissChiff's Closet.... 5 days!!!!!

I'm off to the doctor's soon, check my ankle... what on earth did I do?? But OUCH! Then poster droppings... maybe some Guiness stew... oh yes.. I made teh Guiness stew.... There is goodness in my fridge! ;) (and in my belly!)

Tickets ON SALE NOW!!!

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 18:10:41 GMT

That's right you sexy fabulous peoples, you!!! Tickets to The Garden are on sale now!

Buy your tickets in advance for only $12, or $15 at the door.... see how much I love you??!!?!?! Feel it baby!
That's right. TAKE THAT LOVE! ;)

I want you all to be able to come co-create a sexy, fantasy filled night, so I've kept the ticket price ultra low for our first, Equinox/ Easter long weekend gathering.

Tickets at :

Priape !!! Bushido Tatoo !!! Miss Chiff's Closet !!! DICIB !!!

Note that Bushido has moved and is now on 17 Ave SE by Stampede.

Yes, this is a long weekend Sunday- I hope you all have Monday off, find sitters, do what you need, come on out. Be a little tired the next day, for one day, with a big ol smile on your faces! ;P

Tell all your friends!!!! The event I've heard actual begging for is HERE AT LAST !!!!

Femme Fatale went off last night in it's yearly excellence of fundraising shows.... I arrived a bit late after a sorry fiasco of poor sweetlethe half jumping down a small 2 foot rise and instantly screaming and dropping... so our gorgeous vivacious blonde is out for the count again, from her knee. In her usual humour she was more upset about missing the last month of skiing than the pain she was rolling around from.... And I do mean ROLLING. It was absolutely terrible to see her so hurt, angadeon and I not knowing what to do to make it stop... there really was nothing we COULD do but be there... She was bound and determined to go, first in heels, then ok ok, in flats, and with car, and sit most of the night.... but she just couldn't stand on it at all. In the end she couldn't even just go upstairs but had to take a trip to the hospital... My love, darling, was with you. Her mission to me was simply to take LOTS and LOTS of photos. I took TONS for her...and look forward to sharing them...

So Femme Fatale.... I arrived with Jason that funny magician guy doing his stint, followed by Little Wick and her sexiness doing her glass walking number.... I took pics of my friends- Fyr Cylk spinning flags, then got up there and spun for awhile... Belly dancers followed the live auction and then to finish it off, the wonderful Kibuki Guns with a guest snake!

Then the hordes arrived, as the doors opened to all the jeans and t shirt wearin Tantra crowd. Reminding me why I'm so excited by my private event. None of this letting in o the horde for the venue to make even more money... But to make one point of the goodness of it- giving these people who never have any chance at all to see such wonderful people, to see that there ARE people right here who wear such sexy, fantasy inspired clothes- that we DO exist around them everyday, not just in hollywood or made up for movies. ;) Nice mind expansion pack ! ;)

To go back a bit: Jordan Cook was absolutely amazing. I drove down so took it easy with the drinks. Helped bartend and serve and danced up on the bar while Jordan played. Sexy sexy music. I was on FIRE! He gets me so hot it's incredible !! My skin actually gets hot, he turns me on to a feverish pitch and then leaves me to the mercies of the night.... ;) Cook is a good name for this prodigy...

I'm so glad I help there sometimes. I stuck around and served the band and got to hang out for an improptu jam of Cook and Morley. Yay!!! ;)

Someone told me he thinks I live a rockstar life. I laughed, but now.... well, what is this !?!? Without the riches, the nice cars, the 'luxury' .... ah! It's an artists life. !!! A rockstar in the making!??! Ok. I'm good with that. laugh...

PS: More good news... hehehehe... I just bought my first ever car. Yes. I am the proud owner of a camping hiking biking exploring get around freedom transporter unit.... And i'm just absolutely giggly about it.....

Cook at Soda

Mon, 03 Mar 2008 05:00:32 GMT

Jordan Cook, one of the world's best guitarists, down at SODA tonight.... whooot. now i just have to drag my tired butt outta the house....

Someone come pick my lazy arse up so I can have a beer!!!!! ;P Or three. With some Jag....

I love how life provides so well..... one person fell through for lending o the whips, and another magically appeared. Here's hopin for tomorrow....

And tomorrow..MONDAY... VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE !!!!!

Hey, I gotta go all the way across the city by train AND bus, but BOOOOHAY I'm going...figure while I'm south I'll hit up the Canyon Meadow's theatre for an afternoon mat.... I love movies in the afternoon....

Ok ok... I better get ready to go....

Incredibles

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 21:23:40 GMT

Alot of update:

It's a good message to me, sitting here all full of life, and feeling this intense gratitude and joy in my life, that only a few months ago I was so lost and down and just plain sad..... The cycles.... Over the years, with my understandings of how emotions work, I've learned to enjoy those sadnesses- and boyogirlie did I ever. Fires and baths and time to me was special and loved.... yet it was hard too...

These days I'm just about run off my feet. I'm feeling the inner tension from the sheer amount of THINGS I'm doing! But It's FUN. It's exciting! OH E WHEN IT COMES TOGETHER!!!! WHEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Singing lalalala.

What ever may happen show night, well, enshallah let it be. I'm incredibly excited by how everything I wanted, hoped for, is coming together positively. The JOURNEY is SOOO much fun right now.... good thing after a looooong slow start. I just have to work hard, but then just right, there it is.... reminding me very much of my journey in Africa..... With hard work, leaps of faith, and letting go, it ALL came.....

Yes, I'm excited.... I've gotten "YES's" from each and every place I've asked to sell tickets for me, to put up posters, even for PRIZES!... so far so Fabulous! The DJ line up has turned out spectacular- this is a lot about just having a great club night for us fetish folk. Dress up or down and dance and socialize and listen to good music on a great sound system (I'm looking into renting PK sound!!! They do the Village at Shambhala, the sound for world renowned Dj's such as Bass Nectar etc), I've got THE perfect help on flyers, tix and posters (and had a GREAT time making the thank you cookies!)....

In all this, I've even started a job.....that perfect job for right now.... it's a small salary, more of a retention pay, to do snow removal, and be the driver for a team. Work only when it snows. So amidst all this everything else-ness, I woke at 5am yesterday and drove all day (which on it's own is quite exhausting) AND got a steller outdoor work out.... I was TIRED... whoooooo....still, much to do. A 30 min lie down in darkness rejuvenated me nicely. I got up, made cookies, showered, took some time to relax. I'd gone shopping just after work and bought this treat: Goat cheese with cinnamon and cranberries. Had that with some apple, grapes and crackers.... ways to make life lovely..... before heading out at 10:30pm for Chimera....

I'm having such a great life. I know I am blessed. Really do! Wow... wowwwwweeeee.....

There's more. MOREMOREMORE, but this is always so long.... about getting invited to be a demobottom for a rope workshop tomorrow, about making banana bread and feeling so full of gratitude and riches because I took time for a great workout this morning, got to eat a wonderful salad with toast and have this banana mango strawberry shake. That's riches. This ability to have such good food, my nice new place, this ALL... also about where my tickets will be sold (When they're at the stores I'll tell ya).... about the insane amount I enjoy curling up under the soft light, yet thick warmth of my duvet. About how I appreciate my healthy body for being able to do so much, and how I still miss just sitting, spending hours of nothing reading, with friends, playing chess.... about reading for the role of Queen in Richard the II. About blues singer Mandi singing wonderfully in her new PunkRock!!! band. And somehow there's still the whole night of the eclipse, of wine on the cemetary hill, wine on 4th st, the pizza and wine picnic on the brick couch and dancing up a storm and the big crazy house party and....

I must separate to say David Suzuki is an AMAZING speaker! Yes yes, he knows his stuff. YES of course he's so well respected that we really WANT to hear what he has to say...but he's INTRIGUING! He's so FUNNY!!!! He really pulls you in and keeps your attention! WOWEEO I am so glad I went, on Wed....

Well... so here I am taking a Friday morning / afternoon to be with ME. At home. Not running my arse off outdoors, but busily buzzing about beautifully Being. Here.

OK: SO SOME of my big news release.....

THE DJ'S FOR THE GARDEN WILL BE...... (drum roll please!).....

ChrisB from InOrderToDanse, Dj from Kinky?, Shambhala, new Friday night resident at Snatch
Jinx from Chimera!!!! ohhhh yeaaaaaa!!!!!
with possibly even ChrisB's IOTD partner Damien!!!!

What an event!!!

There are a zillion things a foot.
Now.... There is a dress up Leap Yr party at Illuminata books this eve : 17 Ave next to Watchmans' on 11St SW. $5 cover goes to The Back Door which supports street kids' needs.

The LAST NIGHT of the play at Loose Moose Theater is tonight too. 10:30 pm, it's at the blackfoot mkt.

Tomorrow is a great workshop on fetish things..... Saturday March 1, 2008. Demos 1:00 pm, party at 7:00pm.
To be held at the Shaganappi Community Centre, 2608 - 14th Avenue, S.W. Calgary.
Tickets available at the door we have a few more or phone the ASK line 398-8896

Femme Fatale next Friday is always a biggie, and tix almost sold out....

As well, come on now.... there's no way to get the gov't to listen or care about what we want if they keep KNOWING that young people just don't vote. All this talk of need for low cost housing but WHO CARES if those people with the need DON'T VOTE!??! Who cares about post secondary grants or childcare centers, when it's ONLY the upper middle class that's voting!??! A measely 33% last time, so I've seen reported..

MONDAY PEOPLE!!!! GET YER BUTTS TO THE POLLS!!!!

;P

Blissfully Bruised

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 19:04:42 GMT

Lupercalia was a hit.... a right royal wonderful bash.... giggle.

I'm bruised. Black n blue. And it's LOVELY..... The universe was, as blessfully usual, especially kind. Friday morning was grumpy bumpy rushed to close up the south house- my last night there was done.... after rushing, with no food I did not do so well. Rushed to market, to new house and drop and pack, to pick up a wonderful Cookie ;) to T's, and finally to get my last minute fix of my event card at the printers..... aaaaaaaaand we were off. PHEW.... I wanted icecream....funny how my mind so easily slips and forgets. I had a little flash of that place on the way out of town that has fabulous icecream...but oh, wait.... oh RIGHT... that was in Kenya. oops. laugh....

I was in awareness that this weekend was my tipping/stepping point. That's it. No going back. No more nights at the south house.... a new life, a new way..... A perfect way to do that, step fully outside of everything, and come back new.

Following is a long discourse on my weekend:

So. Wow. Amazing presenters this year, as usual....

Quick (for how much there really could be to tell) run down of my thoughts.... I learned a bit of rope bondage, very nice.... teamed up with sweetlethe where we trussed each other up, and learned some very cool techniques. She stayed in her nice lil 'outfit' for the next class- Playing with Archtypes, which ended up being given by Elwood and Rena, due to Brody's absence.... (Brody: I missed seeing you!!!! BAH! ). Well, very nice class, more of sharing and creating thought on this- think of a warrior, an amazon, a knight,...they all bring Ideas, roles while being similiar are quite different... archtype play can be very fun/intense/healing etc etc... something I play with on many more levels that the bdsm realm, as a spiritual person and also in day to day life....

Now for some intense stuff. I went to Sybil Herman's "Non Consensual Consent" lecture- based on working within the no-safe-word full giving/taking of play.... very informative, excellent lecture, followed by her quick change and her husband's incredible Female Genitorture class.... This couple was brought up from Florida- and I quickly saw why, and how very lucky we were to have them join us!

I have experienced, seen and been aware of a lot in my life, but THIS was a serious eye opener... incredible class! Pushed my awareness far beyond anything I'd even have dreamed up...oh the places you can place needles! Really pushed ME too.... Yes, * I * was shocked.... and highly amused! Mitch Herman did some amazing things with his wife's genitals.

WELL... so the NEXT day after watching Louise (from Vancouver) teach us about punching and kicking in play we had brunch and awards.

I diverge a moment.... What's with me and these cute 23 yr olds? This one with high cheek bones and intense eyes, his name made me laugh- another Alex! Our eyes cut into each other all weekend, and at brunch, sharing a table I even told him I was ready to jump over it and pounce him... gggggrrrrrrrooooowwwwwlllll!!!! Intense.... brought out a much less docile cat in me! ;P Well, no pouncing was done, the sweet guy helped me move my things out of my room, and later when dearly needed, ran and got me a juice....

So let me tell you why I needed that juice so badly.....

I ran back to the Electrical Play class, given by Mitch and Josie Herman. Josie had told me I could be a demo bottom if I was back in time.... I was. And I was... HOLY CRAP was I ever....

3 or 4 chairs set out for some Tens play... and the medical chair with stirrups.... Josie takes me and puts me in front of the medical chair to relax... oh dear, oh YEA!

I got to demo-bottom a very hard to get, expensive, and FABULOUS little toy they call Sparky.... a RussianEMS machine... wow... I am SO lucky!!!

This thing goes deeper into your muscles than tens, (Violet wands only go to the skin) contracting them in different ways depending on the settings. Used for training on athletes, or to keep muscle on a bed ridden patient, they force your muscles into a work out.

Higher settings create a higher work out, and pain.... Intense pain. I started by calling the corners, and Spirit, and kept cycling through them to deal... but wow. Pain! Pleasure! Attached with pads, plastic wrapped to my skin, two outlets per 'channel' with four channels... He had my legs rythmically kicking, with a shot to the calves, while my inner thighs right into my inner hips were vibrating up into a cresendo, before releasing. Later more came to my butt and outter thighs... I was sad to have to stop... Totally different than anything I'd ever felt, this is AMAZING, and my legs were quite weak after. While he had them on me, towards the end, he had Rena and Louise come up and beat my legs too. Obviously the machine builds up a tolerance to pain, so I was able to deal with the very heavy hand of the 0-100 Louise style no-warm up type beating. Rena was hitting hard too, of course.... yummy. I was extremely wobbly .... out of balance, my leg muscles were jello!

Here's where the universe showed me it was in full tilt for me. Dosie (of "The Ethical Slut") was giving the next class: a chakra raising meditation!

Here I am, pumped full of endorphines, connected into my deeper center and got to go on a chakra raising journey. Opened me right up, full of love, of connectivity, of knowing... AND and and and and!!! I was given the answer to a long difficult issue I'd been having... Came in and click. I got it... Nice. All it took was Dosie (who, btw, is absolutely amazing) saying how the earth is a wonderful composter of what we no longer need... OH>>> RIGHT!!!! click. (Based on an energy/spirit issue I'd long been meditating on).

Oh wow was I sore.

Then at dinner Warlock and pyxy came and sat by me at our big table and I got to have a really wonderful conversation with them. Shared some beautiful things, both lifestyle related and not....

Sunday night playparty followed and after a nice hanging out, there was Mitch.... The Electrical play genius... who had my FULL attention. He gave me a knee, and we talked.... I changed into my scarf (long scarves make GREAT slave wear- see pic)....

Can I bounce around in glee, excitement and astounding blessing again!??!?!!?!

I had a fantastic time, while going way beyond my thought-of pain tolerance. I'm so glad I was tied to the post, as I was using my wrist ropes to hold myself up. Even though I was now out of my heels and in boots, just standing my leg muscles were vibrating. NEAT to look at! Could watch my skin vibrate from muscle exhaustion! So I half shook, half held myself up with my arms, while Mitch took me to levels within myself that - well, he said it best later- needed to be uncorked! ;P

All I can say is Thank YOU... wow....

I LOOOOOVE rope. I LOOOOOVE rope. I LOOOOOVE rope! Yay! Yay bondage. Yay yay yay... besides that, I got to experience being really HIT and hard. With the base of the palm of the hand, mostly I think... my back is PERTY!!! ;P

Thank you, Mitch. Thank you Universe. Oh the joys ... and it STILL doesn't end.

After ALL THAT AMAZINGNESS!!!! I got to go to chainsofchaos's new place- wrap around view of the city, drinking top vodka with pomegranate liqueur and sprite and the coolest thing about his place: cuddles with him! Yea again.

What a weekend! Perfectly (isn't EVERYTHING when we're tuned in!??!!?) on the way out I still after all these years knew right where it was - and hit the awesome-est cafe in Edmonton. Home made Chai that * I * will drink. That's saying a LOT. AND one of my fav bookstores ever: Alahambra books.

The ride home treated us to a gorgeous sunset over the mountains. Finished up the south house, closed it down, said good bye.... and at long last, got my icecream.....

Now I'm in the new house and spent 9 straight hours cleaning yesterday. Scrubbie scrub. So much more to do but I'm feeling ready to be here.... Here I am, so I'm uplifting it as much as I can to give it - as I do with most things- the BEST shot I can...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

The Garden is coming... the Garden is coming.... YAY!!!

March 23rd, dance, play-party, shows, demos, prizes, bar, ALL IN ONE AHHHHH YAY~~~!!!

Your wish has been my command....

Fri, 15 Feb 2008 03:47:44 GMT

Your cries have been heard by the universe, and she has provided mightily. Dear children of fetish, kink-filled desires, the hetero, homo, trans and all without label, alternative, curious, poly, just downright horny.... open your ears and hear this,

Hear YE HEAR YE.....

Cheer away, little fiends, cheer away......

That's right. The hints, the allusions, the downright out n out tortuous teasing (Oh, but what * I * had to endure waiting for the go ahead!) now been given the general managers word that the night is ours to play and play and play.

Please join me, at The Garden....

Sunday March 23rd, 9pm on....

At the Big Easy, Calgary 3064 32nd St. NE

Fetish or Formal wear ONLY.... Dress for the Garden, or bring a change of clothes. This WILL be enforced, so dress up you pretty people!
Big boots, nice dancing runners, etc will be allowed, jeans and tshirts will NOT. This IS, after all, for your full sensory pleasure....

More details to come, or email me at fiendishdreams at yahoo dot com

If you're wondering what that delightful feeling oozing out your computer at you is, that's just some desires being fulfilled.... all over Alberta.... ;p

PS: If you haven't heard, I have now nearly totally moved.... Spending my last few days in the old house, happy camping out, curled up in a sleeping bag in front of the fire, drinking wine, after hours and days and weeks of packing and cleaning. I am enjoying the empty finishing.... Time for myself... I'm going to go light candles all over the hardwood floor and dance naked..... A good celebration. An ending to a whole way of life, a beginning to a new one. A vallentine's day. Just a day, a time, a chance to be and do and dance.